There are few things that gladden your heart as much as seeing the ones you love happy because of you.
I had the wonderful chance to make my husband happy. And it wasn't because of the Changezi chicken I made.
No indeed. We had an in depth discussion about why I was refusing to speak to any of my family. And when I planned to do so. Because you see, it was obvious to him that I was miserable anyway. So why no let my heart be lighter by at least trying to start talking to them? By them he meant both sets of parents. I said because they are not sorry about how they treated me. He then told me how sad my in laws were every time he went to visit them and I wasn't there with him. He told me how his mom once mistakenly saw her mobile ringing and thought it was me and her heart was filled with joy. He told they had told him to come with me or to not come at all.
So I called my parents first. I had a word with my mother who blatantly claimed all the things I felt bad about were in my imagination and never happened. So there wasn't much to it then. She spoke to my husband and that was that. I called her again today and told her I loved her and missed her and was sorry if I had hurt her feelings. I didn't get much of a response. Of course it stung but what was I to do?
I called my mother in law and spoke quite normally. Asked what was for dinner, how she is and what was going on. for the most part she sounded stunned. But she did try hard to talk as normally as possible. Then in her eagerness she asked me what we were doing the next day and to come home and I hesitated and said her son wanted to speak to her. I hear her thanking him profusely.
So that was that. I miss home dearly. Both homes. They are equally precious to me. But I am not ready to go there yet. It is good to know they are there though. For the time being that will do.
I cannot tell you how relieved my husband was. He said a weight had been lifted off his shoulders and he was most pleased. He said its ok if I'm not ready to meet anyone. I can take my time. Which I appreciate. I wish to meet my in laws on the 20th of November. After I run that race. When I have something to show for my time spent in relative solitude. Maybe that day I'll send a picture of myself to my parents as well. IF I look fitter they too will feel as if a weight has been lifted off their shoulders. Perhaps. One can only speculate.
Meanwhile last night being my one cheat day in the week my husband surprised me with cheese balls as well as cheddar cheese microwave popcorn for our movie night. I said but I didn't follow the diet so strictly this week. To which his reply was that we can at least do justice by the cheat day. Most amusing. I had taken out our double comforter which had been in the wash and put away the single ones we were using and we had great cuddlytimes. Truth be told it was the most fun I'd had in months.
Here's to love, and to being the bigger person.
Of course my sister and sis in law had called in the past but I refused to answer so in their case I'm small. Just don't want to be hurt again.
I had the wonderful chance to make my husband happy. And it wasn't because of the Changezi chicken I made.
No indeed. We had an in depth discussion about why I was refusing to speak to any of my family. And when I planned to do so. Because you see, it was obvious to him that I was miserable anyway. So why no let my heart be lighter by at least trying to start talking to them? By them he meant both sets of parents. I said because they are not sorry about how they treated me. He then told me how sad my in laws were every time he went to visit them and I wasn't there with him. He told me how his mom once mistakenly saw her mobile ringing and thought it was me and her heart was filled with joy. He told they had told him to come with me or to not come at all.
So I called my parents first. I had a word with my mother who blatantly claimed all the things I felt bad about were in my imagination and never happened. So there wasn't much to it then. She spoke to my husband and that was that. I called her again today and told her I loved her and missed her and was sorry if I had hurt her feelings. I didn't get much of a response. Of course it stung but what was I to do?
I called my mother in law and spoke quite normally. Asked what was for dinner, how she is and what was going on. for the most part she sounded stunned. But she did try hard to talk as normally as possible. Then in her eagerness she asked me what we were doing the next day and to come home and I hesitated and said her son wanted to speak to her. I hear her thanking him profusely.
So that was that. I miss home dearly. Both homes. They are equally precious to me. But I am not ready to go there yet. It is good to know they are there though. For the time being that will do.
I cannot tell you how relieved my husband was. He said a weight had been lifted off his shoulders and he was most pleased. He said its ok if I'm not ready to meet anyone. I can take my time. Which I appreciate. I wish to meet my in laws on the 20th of November. After I run that race. When I have something to show for my time spent in relative solitude. Maybe that day I'll send a picture of myself to my parents as well. IF I look fitter they too will feel as if a weight has been lifted off their shoulders. Perhaps. One can only speculate.
Meanwhile last night being my one cheat day in the week my husband surprised me with cheese balls as well as cheddar cheese microwave popcorn for our movie night. I said but I didn't follow the diet so strictly this week. To which his reply was that we can at least do justice by the cheat day. Most amusing. I had taken out our double comforter which had been in the wash and put away the single ones we were using and we had great cuddlytimes. Truth be told it was the most fun I'd had in months.
Here's to love, and to being the bigger person.
Of course my sister and sis in law had called in the past but I refused to answer so in their case I'm small. Just don't want to be hurt again.
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